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Realization

Last month I finished my final set of online classes for my junior year.  I’m officially a senior.  It’s weird to say that.  I still feel like I’m a clueless 11-year old sometimes… now I’m 17 and going into my last year of school.

For anyone new here, this also means that I’m just about halfway done with my Associate’s Degree because the program I’m allows the coursework of my classes to count for college credit.  This means it’s a little more advanced, but I’ve handled it well the past year.  I also have to take two classes this summer to stay on track, math and a finance business course.

It’s a weird combo I have going on here – I’m a senior in high school and a sophomore in college.

Crazy, right?

But since last week I’ve been thinking a lot about the future.  I guess it’s normal for a 17-year old who is about to enter senior year and has been looking at what colleges to apply to.  It’s a little scary though.  Even though I pretty much know what I want to do, I’m still scared.  I have all these decisions to make and soon I’ll have forms to fill out.

I’m just grateful that I have six older siblings to help me with all of this.

My classes don’t start until July, so I’ve had the majority of May and all of this month off to enjoy summer.  Although, it’s not like taking classes during July and August will ruin summer.  First of all, it’s only two classes and they’re online.  That’s the best thing about online school… I can still go places and even get work done early in the week so I don’t have to worry about it later.

So, yeah, that’s what’s going on with me right now.  How are the rest of you doing?

sly

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Losing You

In life, people drift apart – friends, ex-lovers, even family.

It’s almost inevitable.

Physical distance doesn’t seen like much these days, with video chatting and texting, but it still pulls you away from the ones you love.  Soon enough, they might be known as ‘the ones you loved.’

I don’t want that to happen to us.  We already have the physical distance of living in different states, even when school’s out for the summer.  I don’t want us to become the ones that lost touch because we got busy living our own separated lives.

You mean too much to me.

I would not be where I am without you.  Without you, I’d probably still be sitting in a dark room staring at the walls hating how my life got to that point.  I’d still be depressed.  And if you ever left me, I’d be depressed all over again.  I honestly don’t think I can live my life without you.

I don’t know what the future holds for us, whether we’re meant to be forever or not.  I just want you to always be there.

Because the thing that scares me the most, is losing you.

 

To Sarah.
  Love, Sly.